Day 2

So its day 2 of being home for christmas break, and honestly, Christmas break is 6 days away but, I even feel christmassy at all. Its like this holiday is lost in my family, my family for some reason doesn't feel like a family anymore, its just feels like a group of people who share a house. Its like we all secrectly hate each other or something.

I am not really sure why people cant put their differences behind them, its like he thinks different, or acts different, so what? I mean, we all got our problems, so dont hold it against anyone nah what i mean?

but they also told me that they will be gone for a week after Christmas, thats a plus? a house to myself will be pretty alright. but its like, i dont feel at home anymore, being home is just weird. Its just not the same. I wish i didnt feel displaced, but i do.

for some reason i just feel really stupid right now. oh well whatevs.

Day 1

Alright, since I have fudge else  to I am just going to document my days in Knoxville. I litterally have nothing else to do. Whatever, this is day one. yup, day one. I am stuck here till Jan. 9th because I have a doctor app. then after that I am outy.

So I just met up with one of my old friends and current, just 5 seconds ago, and it was really funny, havent seen them in a year, and I feel like they think I am a freak. But hey, whatev, I think I am still the same guy. Whatever. I think my family is weird, like I dont know whats up, but they are weird. Like right now, my brothers are just sitting in my bedroom, like do they not know I want to sleep?

why am I even writing this, I want to punch myself just for typing, no one really cares about this sad blog I write, I mean, at least I am real with myself. Some peoples blogs are like, "I love life, and animals, and ponies" its like thats cool, but I dont want to hear some fake lies, I want to hear that organic ish. I just logged on facebook again, thinking it would change. it didnt.

like why wont they leave?
i am going to poop on them.
their like those annoying friends who just wont leave your house.

so far, day one. pretty shitty.
i mean its been awhile sense i wanted to punt inanimate objects into animated objects (thats a mouthful)
thats what she said.
why cant i stop typing
idk
i mean i dont know
i mean, maybe 2 or 3 people will actually read this, so it doesnt really matter.
i dont want to sleep knowing that tomorrow may be as mind numbing.

Learning Vol. 3

So I decided last year that, I would make a mix cd for every semester I have in college just to see how my music taste changes. So here is the list.

Best Mode - B.o.B

Pressure - Lupe Fiasco

Just The Two of Us- Bill Withers

There's No Home For You Here - The White Stripes

See Me On Top - Big K.R.I.T

Ain't No Sunshine - Bill Withers

Now's The Time - Charley Parker's Ree Boppers

Right On - The Roots Feat. Joanna Newsom & STS

I Got The Feelin' - James Brown

Little Brother [Electric] - Grizzly Bear

My World Is...[Explicit] - Blue & Exile

Wise One - John Coltrane

25 And They Say_Outro_MED - Exile

Cut You Off {To Grow Closer} - Kendrick Lamar

Stereo (Remastered) - Pavement

The OtherSide (feat. Bilal Oliver & Greg Porn) - The Roots

Swimming On Jupiter - Yoshua Sirius

Bye. - J Dilla

Will To Power (3rd Movement) - The Roots


There where more songs, not all could fit but these seemed most relevant to my semester, in one way or another.
But my favorite song of the semester would have to be "Now's The Time" by Charley Parker's Ree Boppers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1n4yr4SmA4

The Rebirth of Face

The denial

The chops

The stash

The rebirth

The denial

The Chops

the dirt stash

the rebirth

Hocus Pocus Focus

So I was trying to do my philosophy reading, but instead I starting writing down a bunch of thoughts. Tell me what you think.

    I am writing this to share my current thoughts. So let me present a phrase we may all have heard "free will".  The bible gave us free will, even America is considered to be the land of the free. However, how can you live freely when any actions are punishable good or bad.
    Say i decide to rob a bank, well chances are I will end up going to jail. Free will has failed, and I am now in jail (obviously).
      Using the phrase freee will to me is suggesting there is only two directions, the good and the bad. If it where truly free there would be no good or bad at all. Those words would seemingly not exist whatsoever. So to say that you are free is an absurdity, no one is inherently free.
      You are even born un-free. You are born into a natural surroundings in which things have already been decided for you. By this you develop a certain way of thinking based on your surroundings. You are just a subject to your own confines.
     Certainly people are aloud to make any decision they want. Although they do this under the predetermination of good and bad. Perhaps, good and bad/right and wrong is the reason why no one can be free.
    In a sense. Every person is wrong if they believe in free becayse they are limitin themselves. They put chains on unmoral decisions.
Would pain even exist if there was no right and wrong.
 No one is free from birth, it would be impossible to create a free world. The only way to truly be free is to not exist at all.

those are just some thoughts, dont hate.

Flannel Friday

So I dont feel like formulating sentences so I think I am just going to write a list of things that pop into my head.


Beans
screens
math
sunshine
rain
david blane
hate
magic
poop
socks
feet.

ok i am done.
that could totally be a poem
isnt life kind of poetry in itself? your life can really be interrupted in anyway.

I think the people above me are having sex. I try to ignore these things.

today i managed to accomplish absolutely nothing.

i think its interesting to follow completely average people you dont know on twitter. I mean, who the flip wants to hear about how awesome celebrities lives all the time. I want that real shit.

sometimes when i look around a crowded room i assume everyone is starting at me.

i mean whatever, snuggies are not cool. no matter how you look at them.

i mean i guess its ok to snuggle with your dog in your bed, still a little weird.

no, leggings and a over sized sweater is not ok, but i know no one cares.

I almost forgot. Its flannel friday

flannel friday.

Umm

I think ill just keep pretending someone out there is reading this stuff.

whats up?
oh not much. just trying to figure my life out.
are you dumb?
yes.
good.
good?
if you dumb, you shouldn't have to think that hard about it.

^that was a conversation I just had inside my head. YALL BE ALL UP IN MY MIND NOW!
im sorry.
i shouldnt yell.
i ran out of cinnamon toast crunch today.
like i have no effin idea what i am going to eat tomorrow.
i guess some toast?

does anyone ever eat plain toast? Super bland plain ass toast?
i have once
i didnt even toast the bread
it was just bread
i just ate it, all plain like.
i didnt feel like making a sandwhich so i just ate the bread.
honestly,
best decision ever. it tasted like gold.
i never stop to just eat the bread.
i am always trying to fill the bread with all sorts of meats and condiments and lettuce and such.
But bread in its purest form, is still good.
you have to love the bland things i suppose.

I feel as though i just said a lot, about bread...
but isnt it kind of silly.
we rarelly ever just eat the EFFIN bread.

man i just had a revelation. but i am not going to explain it....suckas...
oh wait.
no one reads this anyway.
so i am talking to myself.
or typing.
whiping
hyping
ok ill stop

whippersnapper.

Sandwich.

I am not sure why the title is Sandwich.
Now I want a sandwich.
sandwich.

Today I feel like I am going no where. I am drinking some nasty coffee, which is probably a sign that today is going to blow out the bumhole. butt maybe i am making self fulfilling prophecy for myself today.

In case you where wondering I purposedly said butt...haha
I mean i think i am funny.
every time i hit the enter key and doesn't go down
wait what the hell now it is working.

what should i wear today?
so many options
that was a joke
ill probably just like wear a t shirt or something.

did you know that beavis and butthead is back on mtv?
thats whats up

actually i take all this back. Today is probably going to be alright. I mean, i ate Cinnamon Toast crunch for breakfast. How could you have a bad day after eating that? well maybe if you ate so much you vomitted. But even still it would proabably be the best vomit ever.

I wonder if i vomit lucky charms, ill vomit rainbows.

vomit, that is a flipping weird word. vomit, vomit, VOMIT!

if i had a son, he'd probably wear nikes everywhere and his first word would be swag.

swag.

One of those days.

Alright people. (crickets) I am back to blogging. I dont really have any fuggin idea. I am not that interesting and my life is more than likely going no where. BUT I'm back like cracker jacks.(whatever the fudge that means)

I like the word Fudge.
dont you?
hello?

looks like its just me. Sometimes I get so hyper i just start yelling. Like last night I was in the car and I tuned into the local radio station, and usually during the evenings they play jazz. So naturally I tune in. Well anyway, during my car ride a song I really like started playing. and i just starting yelling shit like "YEAAAH!" "OOOK" "UHHH" -- for no reason i was doing this. Like this song was the most calm song ever, but to me, in my own little world it was suppa hype. It didnt even matter, for a few moments I forgot how to talk, and I could only yell random syllables.

I hope I make myself blog more, even if no one is listening. I ain't on here to get deep, or to joke around. I litterally just type whatever comes to my mind. 100% organic. <---hahaha.

I think i am just going to start answering questions like that.

"hey michael does this shirt make me look fat?"-random "nah biznitch, I'm 100% organic" - me

something like that.
Like this,
and like that,
and uh.

EFF

Certain things in life make you think. Yes this is a general statement, but what really makes you think? Other things. So what was the first thing to ever make someone think? did they make these thoughts out of need or will to survive? Do we choose to think? or are all actions predetermined. Although, if all actions were predetermined, what would be the point of thinking.

The UNofficial Review of 'Undun' by The Roots

An excluse listen to The Roots newest album “Undun” was presented on NPR. I didn’t hesitate to tune in. There has been a lot of hype around this album. The album rings with deep tones and a dark atmosphere. If you want to listen this album you  might want to pause turn off the lights and let it take you away for awhile. This album is a concept album about a Philadelphia kid who gets consumed by hard times of the drug trade. It outlines the struggles this young man had till the end. Right from the beginning of the album you could tell this was going to be serious. It seems like Blackthought (main mc of the roots) was barely rapping at all, and more pouring his emotion into every word that spills off his lips. ?uestlove told Spin magazine recently. "Tariq [a.k.a. Black Thought]'s entire family, his cousin and brothers, have literally all been this guy. Tariq is the only one that has escaped the fate that most of his family have encountered. The narrative definitely hits home with him more than any other member of the band." That in every way is conveyed in this album. Its like he is pulling a knife out of his heart with every exclamation. ?uestlove recently also said, that with their job security of the Jimmy Fallon gig, it allows them to put out music without worrying about public reaction. This being said, I think everyone from folk bangers to metal smashers could take something away from this album. Stories like these need to be told. People who lived the life but fell short of their actual potential. It makes you realize that life is not a joke and that the choices you make effect the outcome. the music carries this message. If you decide to listen to this (at least give it a shot) picture this young man, and reflect on your life. The Roots may have made there best album out of tragedy.


Michael

What the hell just happened?

So, I can't sleep, well, so what? why should I sleep? Why should I get x number of hours every night? Is that really that important. ok, i am going to stop capitalizing letters too, it takes to much time, and well i just want to rant.

If anyone reads this you might be wondering, why am i using blogger? well maybe because tumblr is for hipster ass people, but i guess by using blogger i am saying i am too cool for tumblr which in turn, makes me the hipster bitch, whatever, isnt that what we all want is to be cool? fuck education, we want to be cool.

sometimes, on twitter, even facebook, i try to watch what i say, well the fact of the matter is no one is really paying attention it doesnt matter, its not like one day some company will cross check me and find out i said "fuck" in a blog and not hire me, of course then again, i say that now and maybe they will, basically i am sayin, i probably wont amount to much in my life.

why do we blog in the first place? i mean who gives a turtles vagina what i say? we all would like to think people care but the retality is no one does, and if they do, by tomorrow they will have forgotten any of it even happened. i mean, are we are really that simple minded? I would like to think that i am a good critically although i am sure a lot of people would argue against me on that....haha

OK, here is a random thought (not that any of this isnt random) what if by playing dumb is actually being smart? people have a certain standard by people so if you just blend in, you can get away with a lot. (ok i had a thought and lost it, ill try to come back to that later)

do you ever want to punch someone in the face just because? you have absolutely no reason to punch them in the face? but you just really want to? maybe its the way they look, or the way they talk, but you just want to knock them out cold. Or do you ever want to take something completely perfect and destroy it?

I think i am done with this rant?
i dont know why i put a question mark
i think i am writing this just to feel like someone is listening to me really
i may post this on twitter, but i wouldnt want people to think i am weird or some shit

I think i honestly just am tired
moods usually change because of sleep deprivation, right?

Dont you hate it when you are in a class with over a hundred people, and you have to pee, and you feel like a feak infront of everyone going to pee.

I really wonder if i think i am more awkward than i am?
isnt it weird how different people precieve different things?
Like i could think on a given day that i look good,
but someone else could think i loook like an ugly troll.
but i guess half the fun is not knowing, right?

sometimes, i have the feeling to run naked through fields of grass, but then i remember that could end badly in so many ways,

should i pull an all nighter? i have never done it, ive been in college a whole year, and i have never pulled an all nighter, is there something wrong with me?

do you ever say a word so much you cant stand it anymore, like chapel, or sandwich or label, or wiener

College

I am back again i have my first two classes tomorrow. I dont really want to write on this blog anymore, its just annoying. I am not really that entertaining nor do i really have anything to say so i think i may be saying goodbye to this blog.

Nips

New Readers

There has been some new readers lately, and they are not very nice. They think i am boring, i dont appreciate it.

Suckin Down Some Coffee

As I sip on my second cup of coffee  I am thinking about the new year coming. I am watching this show dexter, it may be one of the greatest shows i have ever seen, but dear lord they have a sex scene like every other scene. I am all for boobs, but come on its a bit much sometime. I just want to see Dexter kill more people? is that weird? actually that seems like a weird thought, i would rather see i syco kill someone then see boobs...I seriously need to rethink my thoughts.

Patagonia