Day 2

So its day 2 of being home for christmas break, and honestly, Christmas break is 6 days away but, I even feel christmassy at all. Its like this holiday is lost in my family, my family for some reason doesn't feel like a family anymore, its just feels like a group of people who share a house. Its like we all secrectly hate each other or something.

I am not really sure why people cant put their differences behind them, its like he thinks different, or acts different, so what? I mean, we all got our problems, so dont hold it against anyone nah what i mean?

but they also told me that they will be gone for a week after Christmas, thats a plus? a house to myself will be pretty alright. but its like, i dont feel at home anymore, being home is just weird. Its just not the same. I wish i didnt feel displaced, but i do.

for some reason i just feel really stupid right now. oh well whatevs.

Day 1

Alright, since I have fudge else  to I am just going to document my days in Knoxville. I litterally have nothing else to do. Whatever, this is day one. yup, day one. I am stuck here till Jan. 9th because I have a doctor app. then after that I am outy.

So I just met up with one of my old friends and current, just 5 seconds ago, and it was really funny, havent seen them in a year, and I feel like they think I am a freak. But hey, whatev, I think I am still the same guy. Whatever. I think my family is weird, like I dont know whats up, but they are weird. Like right now, my brothers are just sitting in my bedroom, like do they not know I want to sleep?

why am I even writing this, I want to punch myself just for typing, no one really cares about this sad blog I write, I mean, at least I am real with myself. Some peoples blogs are like, "I love life, and animals, and ponies" its like thats cool, but I dont want to hear some fake lies, I want to hear that organic ish. I just logged on facebook again, thinking it would change. it didnt.

like why wont they leave?
i am going to poop on them.
their like those annoying friends who just wont leave your house.

so far, day one. pretty shitty.
i mean its been awhile sense i wanted to punt inanimate objects into animated objects (thats a mouthful)
thats what she said.
why cant i stop typing
idk
i mean i dont know
i mean, maybe 2 or 3 people will actually read this, so it doesnt really matter.
i dont want to sleep knowing that tomorrow may be as mind numbing.

Learning Vol. 3

So I decided last year that, I would make a mix cd for every semester I have in college just to see how my music taste changes. So here is the list.

Best Mode - B.o.B

Pressure - Lupe Fiasco

Just The Two of Us- Bill Withers

There's No Home For You Here - The White Stripes

See Me On Top - Big K.R.I.T

Ain't No Sunshine - Bill Withers

Now's The Time - Charley Parker's Ree Boppers

Right On - The Roots Feat. Joanna Newsom & STS

I Got The Feelin' - James Brown

Little Brother [Electric] - Grizzly Bear

My World Is...[Explicit] - Blue & Exile

Wise One - John Coltrane

25 And They Say_Outro_MED - Exile

Cut You Off {To Grow Closer} - Kendrick Lamar

Stereo (Remastered) - Pavement

The OtherSide (feat. Bilal Oliver & Greg Porn) - The Roots

Swimming On Jupiter - Yoshua Sirius

Bye. - J Dilla

Will To Power (3rd Movement) - The Roots


There where more songs, not all could fit but these seemed most relevant to my semester, in one way or another.
But my favorite song of the semester would have to be "Now's The Time" by Charley Parker's Ree Boppers
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1n4yr4SmA4

The Rebirth of Face

The denial

The chops

The stash

The rebirth

The denial

The Chops

the dirt stash

the rebirth

Hocus Pocus Focus

So I was trying to do my philosophy reading, but instead I starting writing down a bunch of thoughts. Tell me what you think.

    I am writing this to share my current thoughts. So let me present a phrase we may all have heard "free will".  The bible gave us free will, even America is considered to be the land of the free. However, how can you live freely when any actions are punishable good or bad.
    Say i decide to rob a bank, well chances are I will end up going to jail. Free will has failed, and I am now in jail (obviously).
      Using the phrase freee will to me is suggesting there is only two directions, the good and the bad. If it where truly free there would be no good or bad at all. Those words would seemingly not exist whatsoever. So to say that you are free is an absurdity, no one is inherently free.
      You are even born un-free. You are born into a natural surroundings in which things have already been decided for you. By this you develop a certain way of thinking based on your surroundings. You are just a subject to your own confines.
     Certainly people are aloud to make any decision they want. Although they do this under the predetermination of good and bad. Perhaps, good and bad/right and wrong is the reason why no one can be free.
    In a sense. Every person is wrong if they believe in free becayse they are limitin themselves. They put chains on unmoral decisions.
Would pain even exist if there was no right and wrong.
 No one is free from birth, it would be impossible to create a free world. The only way to truly be free is to not exist at all.

those are just some thoughts, dont hate.

Flannel Friday

So I dont feel like formulating sentences so I think I am just going to write a list of things that pop into my head.


Beans
screens
math
sunshine
rain
david blane
hate
magic
poop
socks
feet.

ok i am done.
that could totally be a poem
isnt life kind of poetry in itself? your life can really be interrupted in anyway.

I think the people above me are having sex. I try to ignore these things.

today i managed to accomplish absolutely nothing.

i think its interesting to follow completely average people you dont know on twitter. I mean, who the flip wants to hear about how awesome celebrities lives all the time. I want that real shit.

sometimes when i look around a crowded room i assume everyone is starting at me.

i mean whatever, snuggies are not cool. no matter how you look at them.

i mean i guess its ok to snuggle with your dog in your bed, still a little weird.

no, leggings and a over sized sweater is not ok, but i know no one cares.

I almost forgot. Its flannel friday

flannel friday.